“I just want to do something mindless”
The thought catches me unaware. Still it is somehow not surprising.
I know I have been idling for the last week (if not 3). I’ve taken care of the things that absolutely must be done. But my heart hasn’t been in it.
I am restless but yet feeling incredibly lethargic and unmotivated.
I don’t want to tackle the next thing on my to do list. I don’t want to work. I don’t want to be doing school. I don’t want to plan nor prioritize. I don’t want to push the ball forward. I don’t want to get up and go.
I don’t want to deal with the mundane of “real life.”